Dunia dalam Benakku...

Today, I have been living for about 22 years in this mortal world. 

Yeah...this is my 22nd year! 

in this day, 22 years ago... I was born amid the wonderful family
I should thank them, especially my Mom and Dad who always love me
I could not be what I am now without them

today is just an ordinary day, it's just like the common days...

there's no celebration, gifts, surprising party, whatsoever...

I only want to be alone... to think....to realize something...to be grateful for all that I have...

yeah, God has perfectly designed my life story
how lucky I am, owning such a great life...

having many precious things, people, moments, and many other wonderful things...

I have been experiencing many things until this day..

It makes my life becomes colorful...

although sometimes it's just flat...

just black and white...

but still...they contribute to let me feel the taste of the flat life and lead me to be more experienced...:)

There are many things in my head...

spinning around over and over again...

tonight, and almost in every night in my life, 

I question myself, 

who am I?

What do I live for?

what have I done? 

what I have to do in the next years?

what should I achieve? 

Do I have any chance to pass the next years?

those are such annoying questions...

that force me to think more and more about the philosophy of living this life...

but I know, they have very important role...

cause they help me to understand and recognize my mind, my own self, more than I understand any other things in this world ...

I don't want to waste my time...

since I only have one chance...

and I don't want to be regret, ever...!

Sometimes I feel so lonely,

even in a crowded place...

I realize something, 

I need someone beside me

to share everything...

because I can't grasp all of these things just by myself,

but...I need more time to think...

it's not that easy to find such person...

besides, there are still many things that I want to attain before trying to find him...

yeah, I have to be able to identify my self first,

then it turns back to the questions above...

I have to find the answers!!!

Finally, I have something to say to someone who will be my partner for the whole my life:

because I'm nothing without you...
and you are nothing without me...

I wish I could make the clock ticking faster, 
sending me to the moment when I can see your face,
but, this is the best way for us,
God has designed everything perfectly,
you and I will be met in the right time,