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Today, I have been living for about 22 years in this mortal world. 
Yeah...this is my 22nd year! 
in this day, 22 years ago... I was born amid the wonderful family
I should thank them, especially my Mom and Dad who always love me
I could not be what I am now without them

today is just an ordinary day, it's just like the common days...
there's no celebration, gifts, surprising party, whatsoever...
I only want to be alone... to think....to realize something...to be grateful for all that I have...

yeah, God has perfectly designed my life story
how lucky I am, owning such a great life...
having many precious things, people, moments, and many other wonderful things...
I have been experiencing many things until this day..
It makes my life becomes colorful...
although sometimes it's just flat...
just black and white...
but still...they contribute to let me feel the taste of the flat life and lead me to be more experienced...:)
There are many things in my head...
spinning around over and over again...
tonight, and almost in every night in my life, 
I question myself, 
who am I?
What do I live for?
what have I done? 
what I have to do in the next years?
what should I achieve? 
Do I have any chance to pass the next years?

those are such annoying questions...
that force me to think more and more about the philosophy of living this life...
but I know, they have very important role...
cause they help me to understand and recognize my mind, my own self, more than I understand any other things in this world ...

I don't want to waste my time...
since I only have one chance...
and I don't want to be regret, ever...!

Sometimes I feel so lonely,
even in a crowded place...
I realize something, 
I need someone beside me
to share everything...
because I can't grasp all of these things just by myself,

but...I need more time to think...
it's not that easy to find such person...
besides, there are still many things that I want to attain before trying to find him...
yeah, I have to be able to identify my self first,
then it turns back to the questions above...
I have to find the answers!!!

Finally, I have something to say to someone who will be my partner for the whole my life:

To my life partner...
one day, when we have promised to live and grow old together,
you have to read this,

Dear...whoever you are..
wherever you come from...
whenever you'll come...
although in this moment, we are separated by time an space...
you know that I love you even we have never met...

I believe that someday...
we will get together 
and it seems the fairy tales that...
we will live happily ever after...

and notice that I will always love you...
because I'm nothing without you...
and you are nothing without me...
perfect is the precise word to represent the term "you and me"

I wish I could make the clock ticking faster, 
sending me to the moment when I can see your face,
but, this is the best way for us,
God has designed everything perfectly,
you and I will be met in the right time,

I miss you badly...
sincerely,

Your lover,

Satu huruf C menghiasi daftar nilai saya sampai sekarang. Ya, hanya satu dan saya tak mau (lagi) mencoba untuk mengubahnya. Biarkan saja seperti itu. Biar lebih berwarna dan bervariasi. 

Menyebalkan memang kalau harus mengingat bagaimana sejarahnya saya dapat huruf itu. Saya merasa menjadi mahasiswa yang terdzalimi, karena intelegensi saya hanya dihargai dengan sebuah buku yang tidak saya beli. Terdengar sombong memang, tapi memang seperti itu yang saya rasakan. Saya bisa saja terima dengan lapang dada kalau memang saya tidak mampu melakukan yang terbaik di mata kuliah ini, apalagi ini Mata Kuliah Umum.

Bukan saya merendahkan mata kuliah umum, tapi sebagian besar mata kuliah umum yang jumlah mahasiswanya jauh lebih besar daripada mata kuliah jurusan, seringkali menjadi alasan memberikan penilaian yang tidak maksimal kepada setiap mahasiswanya. Ya, memang pasti sulit untuk mengenali kapasitas mahasiswa satu persatu, tapi setidaknya jangan sampai dosen-dosen yang lain, atau guru-guru yang lain, melakukan hal yang sama dengan salah satu dosen MKU yang telah mendzalimi saya, dan teman-teman yang lain.

Betapa ironis ketika pendidikan dijadikan ladang untuk menggali materi. Memang mungkin bisa dijadikan tempat untuk mencari rizki, tapi ya tidak seperti itu juga caranya. Bisa dibayangkan setelah belajar kurang lebih satu semester, dua minggu menjelang UAS, beliau baru menyebarkan buku karya koleganya yang baru selesai dicetak. Kami di"sarankan" untuk membeli buku itu. Katanya isinya bagus dan sangat cocok untuk dijadikan bahan materi perkuliahan kami. Tapi, waktu kita hanya tinggal 2 minggu saja, buat apa bukunya? Lagi pula, setelah saya baca sedikit punya teman saya, isinya hanya uraian dari slideshow yang diberikan di setiap pertemuan, jadi untuk apa saya beli kalau saya ternyata malah sudah dapat yang lebih ringkas. Selain itu, keperluan saya yang lain yang lebih urgent juga masih banyak, keuangan saya juga pas-pasan. Jadi,tidak bisa membeli semua kebutuhan tersebut sekaligus.

Akhirnya saya memutuskan untuk tidak membelinya. Betapa kagetnya setelah saya baca soal nomor terakhir ketika UAS mata kuliah tersebut berlangsung. Soalnya kurang lebih menyebutkan bahwa saya harus melihat gambar yang tertera di buku "karya koleganya" halaman sekian, menelaahi proses apa yang terjadi, beri komentar!

Hell to the O helloooo..... mau belajar sekeras apapun saya, kalau tidak punya buku itu, saya tetap tak bisa mengerjakannya. Lebih parahnya lagi adalah bahwa soal nomor terakhir tersebut yang poinnya cukup besar. Presentase nilai yang diambil dari nilai UAS pun cukup signifikan sehingga akan sangat mempengaruhi nilai. Buku itu tidak boleh dikopi, beliau bilang, "saya akan tuntut kalian ke meja hijau dengan tuduhan pelanggaran hak cipta, saya bisa menuntut ganti rugi sebesar seratus juta jika saya mau". Wow...amazing!

Dan satu lagi yang sangat menyesakkan, kami tidak diperkenankan meminjam buku tersebut kepada yang lain yang memilikinya. Satu aturan terakhir yang menyiratkan iklan beliau, yaitu kami boleh membuka buku ketika ujian, tapi hanya boleh dari buku "kolega beliau" saja, tidak dari sumber lain, termasuk catatan dan hand-out materi yang telah diberikan. tidak adil bukan? Teman-teman bisa menyimpulkan sendiri maksud dosen itu apa.

Saya tak bisa tingga diam. Ketika UAS berlangsung saya bertanya pada pengawas UAS yang kebetulan dosen mata kuliah itu juga, tapi bukan dosen yang memaksa untuk beli buku. Saya protes, kenapa ada soal semacam itu, padahal mereka pasti tahu, tak semua mahasiswa memiliki buku tersebut. Saya tidak percaya ketika dia menjawab bahwa semua itu diluar kuasanya, dia tidak bisa berbuat apa-apa, dan yang terakhir, dia bilang, "jawab aja seadanya".

Oh jadi begitu. kekuasaan dan jabatan mengalahkan semuanya. Saya yakin, bapak itu tahu kalau soal itu nyeleneh, tapi beliau tidak bisa berbuat apa-apa. Akhirnya, tak ada pilihan lain, saya sembunyi-sembunyi pinjam buku. (berasa jadi pencuri waktu itu). Seharusnya saya tidak melakukannya.

Akhirnya nilai akhir pun keluar sekitar satu atau dua minggu setelahyna. Ternyata, sesuai dugaan, huruf C satu-satunya menghiasi daftar nilai saya. Saya merasa tidak terima. Saya merasa telah melakukan tugas saya dengan baik, ikut perkuliahan tanpa absen satu pun, mengerjakan soal UTS dan UAS dengan baik semampu saya, setidaknya, saya merasa layak untuk dapat nilai B. Sebagian besar teman saya juga demikian, yang mendapatkan A hanya satu di kelas kami, bahkan di kelas lain, sampai tak ada satupun, begitu juga di jurusan lain. Bahkan jurusan lain telah melayangkan surat protes pada pihak jurusan MKU tersebut. Sastra Inggris belum ambil sikap. Dosen wali saya menyarankan untuk menggalang suara mahasiswa yang mengambil mata kuliah tersebut untuk melakukan protes. 

Sebelum itu, saya meminta lembar ujian UTS dan UAS ke pihak jurusan tersebut. Saya ingin membuktikan, dan ingin tahu, letak salah saya di mana dan berapa nilai yang saya dapat. Tapi apa jawaban beliau? "kalian boleh meminta lembar ujian kalian, tapi tolong, kami sedang sibuk, kami akan sampaikan nanti, dan satu lagi, hal ini tidak akan mengubah nilai kalian!". Tapi, lembar ujian itu pun tidak kami terima bahkan sampai sekarang. akhirnya kami memutuskan untuk protes.

Saya dengan semangat mengajak teman-teman yang lain. Awalnya mereka mendukung. Saya, dan dua rekan saya mewakili teman-teman sastra Inggris untuk menghadap PD III. kami dimintai nama dan NPM waktu itu, kemudian kami ceritakan semua kronologisnya. Akan tetapi, sayang sekali, menurut beliau, membeli buku merupakan keharusan mahasiswa untuk dijadikan sebagai materi pedamping disamping materi yang diberikan saat perkuliahan. Tapi ini kan beda kasusnya? Di perpustakaan pun buku itu belum bisa dijumpai. Jadi satu-satunya cara ialah MEMBELI BUKU tersebut. Bagaimana dengan mahasiswa yang tidak mampu beli buku? apa mereka berpikir ke arah sana??

Akhirnya, tak ada pilihan lain. saya tidak bisa melanjutkan protes saya. Dukungan teman-teman yang lain pun tidak ada, semua mundur. Akhirnya hanya sampai di situ perjuangan saya dan teman saya. menyedihkan memang, ketika kita harus menyerah dalam suatu permasalahan yang sebenarnya berhak untuk diperjuangkan. Saya tidak mau adik-adik angkatan mengalami hal serupa.

Di Semester Alih Tahun saya mengambil KEMBALI mata kuliah tersebut. Membosankan memang, harus berhadapan dengan dosen yang sama, materi yang sama persis, dan dengan unsur historis yang tidak mengenakan. Saya berusaha singkirkan rasa kesal saya. Saya ingin menyulap huruf C yang menghiasi daftar nilai saya menjadi A atau B. Tapi, memang sudah nasib, huruf C itu masih bertahan sampai sekarang, dan saya tak mau LAGI berusaha untuk MERUBAHNYA. Hal ini cukup jadi bahan cerita untuk anak cucu saya nanti.

Jika sekarang ada komnas anak dan komnas HAM, suatu saat semoga ada komnas untuk mahasiswa, untuk melindungi dan mewadahi aspirasi mahasiswa, khususnya yang terdzalimi seperti saya dan teman-teman saya yang lain. :)
Tapi, mahasiswa yang bagaimana dulu? jangan sampai kita hanya bisa menuntut tanpa bisa membuktikan dan memberikan kontribusi apa-apa. Kalau mahasiswanya leha-leha dan malas, malu untuk diperjuangkannya juga :p.

Akhirnya, saya ingin sampaikan bahwa, jangan sampai, perkulahan, atau KBM di sekolah-sekolah dijadikan ajang untuk menjual buku, mencari peghasilan sampingan, dan sebagainya. Jangan sampai mencoreng nama baik dosen dan guru di Indonesia.

Saya terima nilai saya jelek, dengan alasan, bahwa saya memang benar-benar tidak mampu untuk mendapatkan nilai bagus, bukan karena tidak membeli buku. Yaa, semoga ini hanya prasangka buruk saya, semoga yang sebenarnya tidak demikian, tapi, soal UTS dan UAS yang saya ceritakan tadi menjadi bukti yang cukup menunjukan iklan mereka, bukan?

Mungkin jika beliau membaca tulisan ini dan menyadari bahwa dari awal-akhir saya membicarakan dia, dia mungkin bisa mengajukan saya ke meja hijau, dengan tuduhan pencemaran nama baik. Wah, sudah seperti selebritis saja saya nantinya. B-)

Hati            : hari yang cerah, aku suka, aku bahagia
pikiran         : lho, kenapa? diluar banyak awan, tidak terlalu cerah, dan hari ini pun aku tak terlalu bahagia, banyak yang harus aku kerjakan. Kau dan aku ada dalam satu ruang, tapi kenapa kita tak sama?
hati             : karena aku tak sepertimu, hari yang cerah untukmu belum tentu untukku. Hari ini aku bahagia, tak tau kenapa. Ada yang membuatku selalu ingin tersenyum, rasanya aku mendapatkan sebuah hadiah yang tersimpan untukku, yang akan kubuka jika memang sudah tiba waktunya.
pikiran         : aku tak mengerti
hati             : ya, memang tak harus dimengerti, tapi dirasakan :)
pikiran         : kau membuatku semakin bingung.
hati             : tak usah terlalu dipikirkan, karena kau tak akan pernah bisa memahaminya. Biarkan aku yang merasakannya. Kau dan aku memang sangat berbeda. Tapi aku bersyukur berdampingan denganmu.
pikiran         : kenapa? aku tak bisa memahami perasaanmu, bahkan aku tak peduli.
hati             : karena kau melengkapiku. Tak pernahkah kau berfikir bahwa aku tak bisa seperti ini tanpamu, dan sebaliknya?
pikiran         : ya memang, aku tak pernah menyadarinya, terima kasih Tuhan, aku bisa berdampingan denganmu di satu ruang ini. kekuranganku, tak bisa memahami perasaan yang menjadi kelebihanmu, dan kekuranganmu, tak bisa memikirkan sesuatu yang justru menjadi kelebihanku. Kau dan aku ada karena kekurangan dan kelebihan  kita masing-masing.
hati             : ya, aku sempurna karena kamu ada. dan kamu tau? hari ini aku bahagia :)
pikiran         : ya, aku bisa melihatnya, walaupun tak bisa merasakannya, dan sekarang, ada satu lagi yang membebaniku,
hati             : apa?
pikiran         : aku tak mau merusak kebahagiaanmu hari ini dengan mendengarkan bebanku saat ini.
hati             : kau pikir aku tak tau? tak bisa merasakan, ya aku tau, satu paper lagi yang harus kau selesaikan kan?
pikiran         : wah, aku memang sempurna dengan keberadaanmu, terima kasih hati, telah meringankan sedikit bebanku dengan bahagiamu hari ini :)
hati             : hari yang cerah, aku suka, aku bahagia
pikiran         : lho, kenapa? diluar banyak awan, tidak terlalu cerah, dan hari ini pun aku tak terlalu bahagia, banyak yang harus aku kerjakan. Kau dan aku ada dalam satu ruang, tapi kenapa kita tak sama?
hati             : karena aku tak sepertimu, hari yang cerah untukmu belum tentu untukku. Hari ini aku bahagia, tak tau kenapa. Ada yang membuatku selalu ingin tersenyum, rasanya aku mendapatkan sebuah hadiah yang tersimpan untukku, yang akan kubuka jika memang sudah tiba waktunya.
pikiran         : aku tak mengerti
hati             : ya, memang tak harus dimengerti, tapi dirasakan :)
pikiran         : kau membuatku semakin bingung.
hati             : tak usah terlalu dipikirkan, karena kau tak akan pernah bisa memahaminya. Biarkan aku yang merasakannya. Kau dan aku memang sangat berbeda. Tapi aku bersyukur berdampingan denganmu.
pikiran         : kenapa? aku tak bisa memahami perasaanmu, bahkan aku tak peduli.
hati             : karena kau melengkapiku. Tak pernahkah kau berfikir bahwa aku tak bisa seperti ini tanpamu, dan sebaliknya?
pikiran         : ya memang, aku tak pernah menyadarinya, terima kasih Tuhan, aku bisa berdampingan denganmu di satu ruang ini. kekuranganku, tak bisa memahami perasaan yang menjadi kelebihanmu, dan kekuranganmu, tak bisa memikirkan sesuatu yang justru menjadi kelebihanku. Kau dan aku ada karena kekurangan dan kelebihan  kita masing-masing.
hati             : ya, aku sempurna karena kamu ada. dan kamu tau? hari ini aku bahagia :)
pikiran         : ya, aku bisa melihatnya, walaupun tak bisa merasakannya, dan sekarang, ada satu lagi yang membebaniku,
hati             : apa?
pikiran         : aku tak mau merusak kebahagiaanmu hari ini dengan mendengarkan bebanku saat ini.
hati             : kau pikir aku tak tau? tak bisa merasakan, ya aku tau, satu paper lagi yang harus kau selesaikan kan?
pikiran         : wah, aku memang sempurna dengan keberadaanmu, terima kasih hati, telah meringankan sedikit bebanku dengan bahagiamu hari ini :)


“When will you go, dear?” My mom asked me.
“Tomorrow morning. I will go at 07.00 am tomorrow. Indra will pick me up, we are in the same team.” I answer her question while checking everything that have to be brought to the ‘new place’, where I have to live in for about a month.
“Is everything okay honey? Have you prepared everything? Could I reach you by phone?”
“Sure, we won’t live in a jungle Mom. don’t worry, you can call me every night and day as you want to” I hold her hands to make her sure that I will be fine.
“Promise me that you will always inform me. But how about your part-time job?”
“I have talked to the supervisor, he said that it’s okay for me not to work this month, but I can’t get the salary as the consequence of course. I’m sorry Mom, I can’t get any money this month.”
“Hey, why did you say like that? It’s okay. I’m just afraid that you will be fired because you can’t work for a month. Okay, forget it, you have to get sleep now. You have to wake up early tomorrow.”
“Don’t worry Mom, all is well. Okay Mom, after I checked all of these things, I will sleep tightly.”
“Good night, then”
“Night Mom.” Then, she left me in my room and went to my younger brothers’ room.
In the next day, I woke up early and prepared myself to go to the new place, a small village in Garut for having Kuliah Kerja Nyata (KKN), such an obligatory (rural) social action internship for advanced university students.
“Mom, I have to go now, take care of everything, promise me you’ll be okay.”
“The person who have to tell those words is me. Yes, I will be alright here, you can trust your brothers.” Answered her and then glanced at my brothers.
“Sure, Ilham, Arif, don’t be naughty! You have take care of our lovely mom!” I talked to my brothers who stood beside my mom.
“Hey, you don’t need to ask us to do that! Sure we will. Now, just go, we will have a party when you go, right Arif?” Ilham answered me in sarcastic way, yeah he always like that.
“Yes, sure” answer arif, supporting his elder brother.
“stop fighting, you guys! It’s time for you to go, dear. Indra has been waiting for you.”
“okay Mom, I go, bye all.”
After saying goodbye to my mom and my two little brothers, I went to my campus with Indra, my closest friend. Fortunately, I can be his team-mate. We have been good friends since the first year of study in this university. We will go there by bus from our campus. There had been many students gathering beside the buses. After everything have been ready, we went to Garut at 08.00 am.
                Long story short, we arrived in the new place, a small village named Sukalilah, Garut. There are about 20 persons in my team, 11 girls and 9 boys, including the leader, named Doni, from the Faculty of Agriculture. All members of the team were checking their stuffs.
“Wi, Have I help you to pick all of your stuffs? They look so heavy.” Indra asked me after discharging my bags.
“No, I can handle this, help them would be better I think.” I smiled sarcastically pointing the pink girls. I call them pink girls because they are ‘pink’. Yeah, I mean, overly feminine. That’s why, I’m not close with them. Indra is my only best friend at college.
“Are you kidding me? No, I won’t help them.” Indra answered me.
Then, we went to Mr. Ismail’s house, where would be the place where we live in this village. He has six children, four sons and two daughters. The family welcomed us warmly. The boys of our team would live in the vacant house. It’s far enough from Mr. Ismail’s house.
Mr. Ismail is a wealth person in this village. He has a large house. This is the reason why his house was chosen for us to live in. The girls are divided into three rooms. Unfortunately I had to be in the same room with two of the ‘pink’ girls. It would be boring because they always talked about the same things all the time, if not about boys whom they admire, they would talk about new stuffs to be bought after KKN, or about accessories and something like that. Those are not familiar with me. It was very difficult to be adaptable with them and their habitual activities.
We have been lived there for about a week. As I have promised, I called my mom every day, after I finished working on the projects with the other team members. I had been chosen to be the project officer of education program. I come to every school around the village to complete the data. Indra became my partner in this project.
There were many facts that I found in this village. Most of youths did not continue their study to the higher level. They generally just studied until senior high school. Furthermore, it’s different for the girls. They had no other choices when their parents asked them to get married with the man who came to propose them. Some of them have got married at the age of 16 or 17 and most women at the same age with me have got children. It’s very weird for me.
The surprising fact was that Nina, the youngest daughter of Mr. Ismail’s family, told me that she couldn’t continue her study. Sunday evening, I came to her bedroom only to talk with her. It was the best idea to avoid talking with the pink girls.
“How is your study Nina? You’ve just finished your final exam, right? Which university will you choose?” I asked Nina in her bed room. She was ironing her clothes.
“University? Impossible! I can’t continue my study.” She looked very upset.
“Why? I know that you are smart girl. You deserve to accept that.”
“No, it’s impossible. Actually, I really want to be like you. Smart, well educated, and be independent. But it’s impossible for me. Next week, the man who has come here before will propose me. I will get married soon after I’ve graduated.”
“What?? How can? You are too young. You have rights to get a better future.”
“I can’t refuse my father’s order, you know. Sinta, my elder sister, got married when she was at the same age as me.” She answered sadly.
“Don’t worry Nina, I will help you.”
“What will you do? My father is such a stubborn man. He won’t easily change his decision.”
“I don’t care, I will try.” I left her and tried to find Mr. Ismail. He was in the garden that time.
“Good evening sir, what are you doing?” I asked him in the best manner.
“Good evening Dewi, I am trying to move this flower to the backyard.”
“May I help you?”
“No you don’t need to, It is almost finish.” He smiled at me.
“Okay, but…sir, could we talk?”
“Sure, tonight, we can talk.”
At night, I tried to talk with him. I told him about Nina who wanted to continue her study. I tried to persuade him to cancel his plan about his daughter’s marriage. He looked little bit angry after listening to me.
“This is my prerogative I think. You don’t have any rights to give such suggestion. This is the norm in this village that if there is a man who wants to propose the girl in the family, we can’t reject him. You know, it’s the main job for the woman to take care of the household, the family, the children. She doesn’t need to study to the higher level.”
“I don’t think so. My mom is one of the victims of this thought. She got married when she was very young. She only graduated of elementary school. Now she has to be able not only to take care of the household and the children, but also have to be the breadwinner, because my father passed away when I was a second grader of senior high school. Luckily, my father was a civil servant. We still can depend on my father’s pension fund, but it’s not enough. I have to help her earning money to fund our living. That’s why she doesn’t want me to experience the same thing with her. What if the same thing happens to your daughter?” I told him about my background. He looked agreed with everything I said. But he kept silent and didn’t say anything.
“Okay, this is your prerogative, but I wish you could make the decision wisely. Your daughter’s future is more important than the norm in this village. I’m sorry for saying this, but it’s for your own daughter’s sake. Good night sir.” I left him and went to my room. I didn’t know what I’ve said. It seemed that I had in hand too far. But I don’t care. I can’t only be quiet seeing such thing in front of me.
                In the next week, the man came to Mr. Ismail’s house. He came with his family bringing much stuff for the girl in the family, Nina. Various kinds of foods have been offered on the table. Then, the most important moment began. However, surprisingly, after they asked Nina to get married with the man, Mr. Ismail answered,
“I’m so sorry. I can’t answer this, because the person who has the rights to do so is Nina itself. It depends on Nina’s decision. Nina, I won’t force you to do the thing that you don’t want to.” His left hand, held Nina’s hand who sat beside him.
“I…actually…I…I really want to continue my study. I…I’m so sorry. I don’t want to reject you, but… I have a dream and I want to make it come true. If you really want to marry me, it’s okay for me, but not now, because I want to reach my dream first.”
                The man and all of his family looked very disappointed. Some of them looked very angry and then left the room. However, the man’s father wisely said that they could accept Nina’s decision. They were proud of Nina’s braveness in delivering her decision. Finally everything went well. Nina looked very happy because his father could understand her views.
                We spent the rest of the days in the village happily. I finally could be adaptable with the pink girls. I could work together with them cooperatively. I found many interesting things to be shared with my whole family in Bandung. It seemed very short that the time for coming back to our real lives was only several days left. We had to leave this beautiful place. We went home after having farewell party with them. Nina and I still keep in touch until now, because she has a plan to study at the same university with me. It was such a great thing for me.

Minggu, 08 Mei 2011

Minggu pagi yang cerah, di Salam I, Cibatu, Garut. Hari ini apa ngajak jogging, haha jarang-jarang. Salam I sudah banyak berubah sekarang. Banyak rumah dibangun di lahan yang tadinya kebun atau sawah, mungkin sebentar lagi menyusul jadi kota. Sebaiknya tidak, karena itu akan menghilangkan rasa yang selama ini membuat saya selalu ingin pulang. Kami jogging tanpa sarapan dulu. Tidak terlalu jauh sih, hanya sampai Cikosambi (nama kerennya sih Ciko, hehe), tempat antara tanjakan dan pudunan yang dulu sering dipake orang pacaran karena tempatnya sepi, tapi sekarang udah rame, jadi jarang dipake pacaran lagi.

Kami jogging sama ponakan yang ke 9, Kayla. Dia seneng banget diajak jogging bareng. Pulang jogging (sebentar banget sih joggingnya, itupun nggak sampe berkeringat), kami berburu makanan. Sayngnya buburnya Anton (tukang bubur di Salam I) abis. Untungnya dari kejauhan liat ada Mang Iing masih sibuk ladenin pelanggan. Beliau adalah teman seangkatan apa waktu SD. Umurnya sekitar 68 tahun. Sudah tua memang, tapi masih perkasa memikul tanggungan bubur dan gorengan.

Sejak saya SD dia sudah berjualan bubur. Rasanya? Sudah pasti enak (iyalah udah sangat menguasai masalah bubur membubur) dan harganya juga murah. Dulu sejak SD kelas 1, saya hanya diberi bekal 100 atau 200 rupiah. Waktu itu masih bisa beli bala-bala empat, kerupuk, atau permen, sekarang jarang yang harganya segitu, jajanan paling murah basanya 500an. Dulu sejak SD kelas satu, kalo ada bekal lebih, misalnya dapet bekal 500, biasanya dibeliin semangkuk bubur Mang Iing yang harganya waktu itu memang hanya 500 rupiah per mangkuk. Sudah lama rasanya bisa jajan kayak gitu. Jajan bubur terus makannya sambil jongkok di dekat pagar kawat pembatas sekolah.  Sekarang saya sudah kuliah dan beliau masih berjualan. Serasa balik lagi ke masa-masa itu waktu makan buburnya Mang Iing. Yang special kali ini, saya beli buburnya sama Apa. Jarang-jarang dia mau beli-beli kayak gitu. 

Alhamdulillah, hari Minggu yang indah, mengobati kerinduan akan masa lalu. Terima kasih ya Allah, terima kasih Mang Iing :)

Kamis, 05 05 2011
Tadi siang, yang seharusnya ada kuliah Logika, eeeeh ternyata dosennya nggak ada. Dengan sangat menyesal, saya sudah jauh-jauh datang dari Bandung, hujan, ongkos, dan ternyata tidak ada kuliah satu pun!
Tapi, semua ada hikmahnya, bukan? yup, betul sekali karena tadi siang, setelah Dzuhur bertemu teman KKN nya Ica, nggak tau siapa namanya, (hehe, maaf). Dia bilang ada diskusi feminis sama Bu Atwin (baca :  Ibu Aquarini Prabasmoro) di aula PSBJ (Pusat Sastra & Bahasa Jepang) Fasa UNPAD jam 13.00. Akhirnyaaaa...ada juga hikmah datang ke Nangor hari ini :D horeeeee!

Di PSBJ, jam udah nunjukin pukul 13.00, pembicaranya, Bu Atwin & Pak Aji udah siap di tempat, tapi diskusi belum dimulai juga. MC-nya terus ngomongin rangkaian acara dari awal sampai akhir. tiba-tiba ada perempuan dengan stelan wanita karir (katanya) pake baju blazer dan rok pendek warna cokelat, masuk podium diikutin laki-laki yang bawa kamera dua orang. Nah lho, ada apa nih? dia bilang mau wawancara, wawancara apaan coba? katanya wawancara tapi malah ngocoes sendiri..... Ya jelaslah, karena ternyata ini tuh monolog sebagai prolog dari diskusi itu, tapi tampaknya bu Atwin dan Pak Ajinya nggak tau ada acara teatrikal dulu, dan bener aja, Bu Atwin terlihat kesal, saya dan temen-temen Sastra Inggris lainnya udah tau gimana karakter beliau. dan sepertinya beliau tidak setuju dengan monolog yang disajikan. (ekspresinya mengatakan demikian). Akhirnya diskusi yang mestinya dimulai jam 13.00 jadi molor sampe jam 13.45. (sayang sekali)

Tapi dengan materi yang disampaikan, semuanya terobati. Materinya keren banget! walaupun singkat tapi bisa buka mata kita lebar-lebar. Diskusi dimulai sama pak Aji yang menjelaskan tentang penggambaran perempuan dalam karya sastra Indonesia dari zaman Balai Pustaka sampai sekarang. Intinya bahwa karya sastra zaman dulu memang didominasi sama penulis laki-laki yang menggambarkan perempuan sebagai sosok pasif yang tidak bisa apa-apa, misalnya Siti Nurbaya digambarkan nggak punya pilihan lain, hanya menjadi objek tanpa menunjukan bagaimana dia struggle. Hal ini karena di era tersebut penulis yang berkarya adalah laki-laki sehingga perempuan yang digambarkan adalah sosok perempuan yang ideal di mata sebagian besar laki-laki di masa itu, yaitu perempuan yang penurut, diam, tidak punya hak memutuskan sesuatu, hanya sebagai seorang yang bantu-bantu di rumah tanpa punya kesempatan untuk menunjukan perasaannya. Berbeda dengan karya sastra zaman sekarang yang didominasi perempuan, misalnya N.H. Dini, Ayu Utami, Dewi Lestari, Djenar Maesa Ayu, dan masih banyak lagi. Mereka mulai menggambarkan perempuan yang langsung dari kaca mata perempuan itu sendiri. Tidak seperti pada masa-masa sebelumnya, perempuan mulai digambarkan sebagai subjek yang bisa mengendalikan keadaan. penggambaran perempuan menjadi lebih powerful di karya sastra masa kini.

Diskusi kemudian dilanjutkan oleh Bu Atwin, salah satu perempuan yang menginspirasi saya :). Beliau memulai diskusi dengan menjelaskan perbedaan antara femaleness, femininities, dan feminism. Perbedaannya yaitu bahwa femaleness berorientasi secara fisik biologis (sexuality) male-female, sedangkan femininities merupakan suatu konsep sosial yang ditempelkan kepada perempuan dan laki-laki, bagaimana sosial menilai seseorang sebagai perempuan atau laki-laki. Seorang laki-laki bisa saja feminin, dan sebaliknya, jadi tidak menjamin bahwa feminin itu selalu menempel pada perempuan begitu juga maskulin, tidak selalu menempel pada laki-laki. Selain itu, seorang perempuan juga tidak bisa sepenuhnya feminin, karena setiap manusia pasti berubah, bisa saja sisi femininnya yang muncul, di saat yang lain, sisi maskulinnya pun bisa saja muncul. Feminism sendiri merupakan suatu pergerakan yang berusaha untuk mengangkat perempuan, menonjolkan perempuan, menyuarakan perasaan, bakat, pemikiran, tetapi tidak berusaha untuk menyamaratakan perempuan dan laki-laki.


Suatu karya bisa dinilai feminis jika :
  • Mempertanyakan relasi gender yang timpang
  • mempromosikan relasi gender yang lebih seimbang
  • Membongkar representasi perempuan yang dibungkam oleh teks
  • mengedepankan subjektivitas perempuan (yaitu perempuan sebagai subjek)
  • Mengartikulasi suara perempuan, pengalaman, persepsi, perasaan, dan cara perempuan mengambil keputusan
  • Menyadarkan perempuan akan opresi ideologi patriarki dalam konteks etnis, nasionalis, dan ras
  • mengganggu dan membongkar ideologi normatif, opresi biner, dan heterogenitas
  • menganggu karya canon (termasuk melirik genre yang seringkali dianggap tidak bernilai sastra misalnya sinetron, roman, teenlit, dll yang banyak disukai perempuan)
yang harus diingat adalah bahwa teks yang menceritakan perempuan itu tidak selalu feminis, berpotensi untuk melanggengkan ideologi patriarkal (misalnya cerita Siti Nurbaya tadi), dan tidak selalu berpihak pada perempuan. Misalnya di dokter kandungan atau bidan, kita selalu menemukan poster tentang kehamilan dengan gambar ibu hamil yang terfokus hanya pada perutnya saja. Menurut Bu Atwin hal ini merupakan salah satu pemutilasian sosok perempuan dimana perempuan hanya diperlihatkan hanya pada perutnya saja yang didalamnya terdapat janin, seolah-olah perempuan hanya sebagai cangkang yang tak penting keberadaanya. (waah, baru sadar akan hal ini, terima kasih lagi bu :)). Tidak hanya itu, kala seorang perempuan melahirkan pun, yang telah berjuang keras antara hidup dan mati, setelah bayinya lahir, yang biasanya pertama ditanyakan adalah: "bagaimana bayinya? sehat?" dan yang diberi hadiah, selalu bayinya, hampir tidak pernah memberi hadiah pada yang baru melahirkan yaitu ibu yang telah bersusah payah mengandung sembilan bulan hingga proses kelahiran yang sangat berat dan menyakitkan (baru nyadar juga). tidak hanya itu, sang ayah juga biasanya langsung terfokus pada sang bayi, sedangkan si ibu yang sudah bertarung antara hidup dan mati seringkali terlupakan.

Akhirnya diskusi selesai. Sesi tanya jawab hanya bisa dilakukan satu termen saja karena waktu yang tersita sama perempuan yang ceritanya mau wawancara tadi.
Tanya1 (Saras Sasindo) : Apa perbedaan emansipasi &  feminisme?
Jawab (Bu Atwin)  : Emansipasi merupakan pergerakan feminis juga yang muncul sekitar tahun 60-70-an. Pergerakan ini muncul karena pada waktu itu di Indonesia, posisi perempuan jauh tertinggal dari laki-laki yang memiliki kuasa untuk menempuh pendidikan, sehingga gerakan ini berusaha untuk mengejar ketertinggalan dengan laki-laki dengan berusaha menamaratakan antara perempuan dengan laki-laki, nahwa perempuan bisa mengerjakan pekerjaan yang dilakukan laki-laki. Sekarang, konsep ini sudah tidak dipakai lagi di negara lain, terutama di barat, karena perempuan tidak harus sama dengan laki-laki. Perempuan bisa sukses dengan caranya sendiri, walaupun menggeluti pekerjaan dinilai yang sangat feminin.
Tanya2 (Ani Sasing) : Kenapa kalau di peringatan hari ibu atau hari kartini, yang ditonjolkan justru perempuan yang menggeluti pekerjaan yang dilakukan laki-laki? bagaimana feminis memandang hal itu?
Jawab (Bu Atwin) : Ada kaitannya dengan pertanyaan sebelumnya, bahwa orientasi dari gerakan emansipasi itu adalah mengejar ketertinggalan perempuan dibanding laki-laki, sehingga, perempuan yang melakukan pekerjaan laki-laki dinilai sebagai wanita hebat. Padahal, ini adalah konsep yang salah, karena perempuan bisa sukses dengan mengerjakan pekerjaan yang sesuai dengan kodrat mereka sebagai perempuan, tidak harus selalu sama dengan laki-laki.
Tanya3 (- Sasindo) : Apakah karya sastra yang menunjukan ketertindasan perempuan bisa disebut feminis?
Jawab (Pak Aji) : inti jawabannya: tergantung dari opresi biner yang terjadi dalam karya tersebut.
(Bu Atwin): seperti yang telah dijelasakan sebelumnya bahwa karya sastra yang menggambarkan perempuan tertindas bisa saja feminis kalau karya tersebut tidak hanya menggambarkan perempuan sebagai objek ketertindasan, tetapi juga menunjukan perempuan sebagai subjek yang bisa berjuang melawan ketertindasan tersebut. Intinya, bisa menyuarakan perempuan yang tertindas tersebut.

Akhirnya, diskusi berakhir. Sayang sekali, berasa sangat singkat, padahal materinya sangat bagus. Satu hal yang saya suka dari penjelasan bu Atwin, yaitu bahwa feminis tidak menuntut kesetaraan, kesamaan dengan laki-laki, tetapi lebih keberdampingan, bahwa wanita ada bukan harus diposisikan di bawah, tapi sebagai partner yang bisa saling melengkapi. Misalnya, dalam rumah tangga, bukan siapa yang harus mengerjakan apa, tetapi siapa yang bisa mengerjakan apa. Kalau ternyata sang istri sedang ingin mencuci mobil dan sang suami sedang ingin memasak, kenapa tidak?
Bahkan seringkali dengan konsep laki laki berada di atas perempuan status hirarkinya, justru menjadi opresi bagi laki-laki sendiri. Anak laki-laki tidak bisa menangis karena menangis dianggap lemah, padahal justru dengan menangis, seseorang bisa menjadi lebih tenang. Misalnya saja kalau anak laki-laki terjatuh, kesakitan, orang tua biasanya bilang, "jangan nangis nak, kamu kan laki-laki." Dengan pemikiran yang tertanam dalam diri anak sejak masa kecilnya akan menjadi suatu keharusan bagi dirinya untuk tidak menangis. Padahal setiap manusia, tak peduli laki-laki atau perempuan, berhak untuk mengungkapkan perasaan, terutama melalui menangis, bukan?

Dan satu lagi, beliau bilang bahwa pasangan yang sehat itu pasangan yang setiap orang di dalamnya mudah berkata maaf dan terima kasih.  :)

   Children Literature is one of my favorite subjects. One of the other reasons is the lecturer who gave me many things that expand my view. Yeah, I'm a big fan of her, one of my inspirational women, Mrs. Aquarini P. Prabasmoro, M.Hum., M.A., Phd. For the very first time, she could make me enjoy writing and this is the result. This is my final assignment and I got a good mark for this. I know, It's still need to be improved, because there are still many parts to be corrected. However, I'm very proud of it. Thanks Mrs. Atwin, you are such a great woman :). Someday, I hope I could be an expert of Children Literature. Amiin...
1.    Introduction
1. 1.  Background
          Literature is one of many other ways that can be used to introduce and teach the children about life. The texts show how representation of the real life. The children may realize the values and norms which are applied in the societies where they live.
          In this paper I want to talk about how the literature describe the disabled person in realistic stories for children. I choose realistic stories in order to give an actual sample that represent our real lives as human being. As we know that in our lives, indeed, there are many persons, including children, adults, even the elderly men and women, with disabilities either physical, mental, cognitive, or emotional disabilities. Sometimes, they are considered as weird person because of their unusualness. sometimes we belittle and think that we, as the normal persons, are better in every way than those persons. Whereas, they may have special talents which is could not be shown because they are trapped in our impressions.
          That is why the way of representing  the handicapped persons in the children’s stories  is very important to form their mindsets that the those persons have the same rights with us. As Mary Clare Martin said that “children’s literature not only has the potential to influence future generations, but may be more illuminating of contemporary attitudes than theories or histories constructed retrospectively” (2010).
          Comparing the way of building the  characters of the disabled persons in those stories is very interesting for me. Besides, the story which contains didactic values about respecting other persons will be useful to form the character of the children. Therefore, when they face the real situation in their daily lives, they will more respect the other persons who have disabilities because they have new experiences from the book that they have read. Those are the reason why I choose to write about this topic.
1. 2.  Theorical Framework
          There are many ways to delivers the values, especially moral values in the literature for children. In this paper, I only work trough the values which emerge from the representation of disabled characters of the stories. I try to scrutinize the moral messages which contain in the stories.
1. 3.  About the Three Short Stories
·         Silly McAdam
         This story is taken from the collection of Bedtime Stories which is written and retold by Philip Hawthorn. It tells about a man who is extremely silly named McAdam, married to a nice woman. This is about a day in the life of Mr and Mrs McAdam which went on turbulently caused by McAdam’s idiocy. It’s a kind of human disability when someone could not think logically and wisely when solving the problems.
         We can see his stupidity from the part that one day, he should go to the junk sale to sell their old stuff because they are out of money. On the way to the junk sale, he exchanged his helmet with a sandwich, then he exchanged the car and the old stuff with eleven coins to the man, then the gold coins was exchanged with the band, and finally, the band is also exchanged with his helmet when he met his friend who had exchanged the sandwich with him. It also contains some rude words while addressing Mr. McAdam as silly man or silly Mc Adam. For example when she gets angry caused by the stupidity of her husband, she said, “Why did he have your helmet, you silly man?” (Hawthorn, 1997).
·         What Kathy Did
         This is one of the children’s story in the collection of The Treasury of Literature for Children. This is the shorter version because actually, this is a novel. According to the introduction of the story, Susan Coolidge was the pen name of Sarah Chauncey Woolsey.
         This story tells about a girl as the eldest child of the family who had been crippled because of an accident. In the beginning, the story tells that she couldn’t walk and have to sit on wheel chair. She couldn’t even go downstair because her house was not designed for the wheel chair. The story shows that Katy, although in such condition, still dominated the household. She called her brothers and sisters by ringing the bell. She ordered the sisters to do the household because she couldn’t do that by herself.
         Everyone loves her since her character described to be wise, charitable, polite, and so on. Being disabled girl made her more appreciate the others for weakness. She could manage the family, the household, and her younger brothers and sisters in their lives. She thought that it’s not someone’s fault for her weakness.
         In the end of the story, it’s surprising that Katy tried to stand and walk by herself. She practiced to walk day by day. Someday, Clover, her younger sister arranged a special day, which was her mother’s birthday to make a surprise party for Katy. It made her happy because in the same day, she could go downstair for the first time after the accident. The happiest momment was when she know that her lovely Cousin Helen, who was also could not walk, was there to celebrate her recovery. (Coolidge, 1983)
·         A Friend for Julia
         This is a story which is written by Ellen K. Hatcher in 2006. It tells about the situation that have to be faced by the handicapped girl named Julia as the new student in the school, who could not walk since she was a baby. She was not confident of being handicapped. It made her difficult to make a friend with the others. However, one of the students named Kendall was very curious of her new classmate. She tried to be close with her by visiting her house. Finally, she found that Julia was a unique girl who could speak the alphabet backwards and made many unique songs that other kids may not be able to do such things. Then they became close friends. Kendall bravely introduced her new friends in the front of the class and informed all the students that Julia was a nice friend who had many interesting abilities. (Hatcher, 2006).
2.       Literary Review
2.1.    Realistic Fiction for Children
          There are many definition of children realistic stories, one of them is the definition from Huck, C. S., Hapler, S., & Hickman, J, “realistic fiction may be defined as imaginative writing that accurately reflects life as it was lived in the past or could be lived today” (1989, p. 527). The other definition that I got from the anonymous article of the website, describes how the realistic fiction should be, that it “potrays the real world in all its dimensions; it shows the humorous, the sensitive, the thoughtful, the joyful, and the painful sides of life. By its very nature, it deals with the vast range of sensitive topics prevalent in today’s world.” (2010)
          From those definitions and characterizations of children realistic fiction, we can conclude that it have to tell the things that may happen in the future and might have been happened in the past. It should represent the real life. Then, there will be a new question, what does the ‘real’ mean? Because as (Huck, et al., 1989) said that “what is real for one may not be real for another”. Certainly, all people do not have the same abilities when facing the problems in their lives. However, we can generalize the meaning of ‘real’ itself by differ it from fantasy stories which couldn’t be happen, for example, the story about fairies which never exist or the magical wand of Harry Potter.
2.2.    Disabled Characters of the Realistic Stories
          In our daily lives, we may easily find many persons who have disabilities. Indeed, the children are also have to face that reality. The description of handicapped persons in the literature “can give them windows for looking at different aspects of life, show them how some characters have faced personal crises, and help them ask and answer the questions about the meaning of life” (Huck, et al., 1989, p. 556).
          Huck et al. delivers the classification of the good stories which contains the disabled chararacters should provides two aims. First it should portray the disabled persons as the positive image. The second is that it may facilitate the children with disabilities to be more understand of the difficulties that have to be faced by disabled persons (1989, p. 557).
          According to Huck, et al., the disabled person:
...should neither be exaggerated nor ignored, neither dramatized nor minimized, neither romanticized nor belittled. It is particularly important that stories of disabilities be well written, not sentimental nor maudlin. They should not evoke pity for what children with disabilities cannot do, but respect for what they can do. As in all well-written stories, characters should be multidimensional persons with real feelings and frustations. The author should be honest in portraying future possibilities for the character. (1989, p.557)
I think the purposes of portraying the disabled characters in children literature as what has been argued by Huck et al, is related to the argument that “portrays learning disabilities can be used to promote awareness, understanding, and acceptance of individuals with learning disabilities.” (Prater, Dyches, & Marissa, 2006). Besides, the representations of disabled persons in children’s stories are also portrayed as what Ann Dowker called as ‘the school of pain’ where someone with disabilities can learn lessons in "Patience" and "Making the Best of Things", and become the "Heart of the House" (Dowker, 2004). Therefore, from this  learning process, children know what they should do when they face the fact that the persons with disabilities exist around them and for the disabled children itself, it can be a media to show them that they still have a chance to show their potencies instead of their disabilities.
2.3.    Values in Children’s Realistic Stories
          Children still have little experience about life and need more to be taught about life. Reading or telling children’s realistic stories is one way to introduce the life to them. The good realistic fictions should not be dominated by didactic values (May, 1995, p. 115). It is because, as what  Huck et al. argue that many possible models, both good or bad, are needed to coping with human condition, so that they can differ the good and bad things in life by themselves (Huck, et al., p. 529). Besides, the realistic fiction may also give the new experience which they may have never had before. From those explanation, it can be said that it’s fine to attach some bad things in children stories, such as death, which is considered as taboo subject, in case that they are accompanied by the teacher or the parents who will give them the guidance to help them differ which one is good or bad.
          By telling the bad things in realistic fiction can also become a method to show to the children that they are not the first and the only one in the world who faced problems (Huck, et al., 1989, p. 528). It make them realize that there are many other persons who have to face the more difficult life than theirs. Furthermore, it also can help the children to understand about the human relationship and human problems.
          Teach the children about life doesn’t mean never show them about the bad deeds or bad behaviour. According to the David Elkind’s argument (1981, p. 84) which is cited by Huck et al. (1989, p. 557), that “This is the major stress of the literature of young children aimed at making them aware of the problems in the world about them before they have a chance to master the problem of childhood”. We should make them aware of the negative sides in the real life before they know it by themselves, because the effect would not be the same if we inform them first. The children without the learning process before, will consume all they see and reflect them in their behaviour, they can’t filter the good and the bad things since no information before. That’s why the moral messages, either delivered explicitly or implicitly, in the children literature is very important as the media to enrich their experiences. However, Jill P. May argues that “fiction writers often want to entertain their reader more than they want to instruct them about life and they become involved in the story they are telling” (1995, p. 114)
3.         Discussion
          In this part, I will explain about how the persons with disabilities are described in each of the three realistic stories.
3.1.    Silly McAdam
          The character of McAdam as the person with idiocy is represented as cornered character because of his disability. The position as the husband of the family means nothing because his wife who is described as nice and smart woman lord over the family. The wife always cursed her husband due to the fact that he always clutters everything because of his mental impairment. Furthermore, in the very beginning of the story, it tells that the wife worked very hard while the husband seemed to lose their money. It shows the reason why Mrs. McAdam as the wife bravely cursed her husband, and why she dominated the family and marginalized her husband.            
          We can see the stupidity of Mr. McAdam by what he did, how his appearance looked like, and how he decided something. For example from his habit of wearing flying helmet while he drove his car. It seems uncommon and such a weird behaviour. Then the decision of exchanging the stuffs until there’s left nothing but only his flying helmet, is also the silly thing which he had done. He couldn’t manage his mind of doing anything, he couldn’t do the order from his wife to get the money by selling their old stuffs.
          This story shows that being disabled person means being useless and having no mean at all. It also make us think that the normal person which is represented by Mrs. McAdam is more superior than the disabled person which is represented by Mr. McAdam. The mental impairment of Mr. McAdam is exploited by the people around him. They can get what they want from Mr. McAdam by deceiving him and manipulating his stupidity. Overall, the disabled character, in this case Mr. McAdam, is marginalized and belittled because of his disability.
          We may consider the cursing words by Mrs McAdam very impolite and rude so that this story becomes inappropriate for the children. However as I have explained before that we may conclude the ‘bad things’ in children literature is attached to let them now that it indeed exists. We help them to differ which one is good or bad. It is used to show the children that such situation exists in the real life, so that when they face the same kind of this story, they will be more sensitive and realize what really happens around them.
          From the description of Mr. And Mrs McAdam, we can also teach the children about the relationship of the family.  That the husband and the wife of the family should not be authorized by one side, either by the wife or the husband no matter he or she has physical or mental impairment or not. It’s because every human is created with their own potencies and weakness. In this story, the main thing is that the disabled person represented only by his weakness without describing his potency. It seems that the disabilities in this story
3.2.    What Katy Did
          In this story, the description of the disabled person is hardly the same with the description of McAdam in the Silly McAdam. Katy, as the girl who can’t walk, was discribed as a good person with important role in the family. Although she couldn’t walk, she still the person who took care and managed everything in the family since she was the eldest daughter.
          This story is dominated by didactic values such as social values, when the fat old women named Mrs. Worret arranged to visit them one day. Katy’s sister asked Katy to refuse her coming, but Katy didn’t respond it. She prefer to welcome Mrs. Worret. The appearance of Mrs. Worret was very funny becauce of her fat body that could make everyone laugh easily, bu not for Katy. For her, Mrs. Worret was such a kind old woman. She asked her sister not to laugh at her because being fat is not her fault. It shows the children that laughing at someone else weakness is impolite.
          From this example, being fat is also a kind of disabilities, because it’s such being different from the others. Katy was aware of it because she, herself was different for being disabled of walking. She could appreciate the others with disabilities by learning from her own experiences. There are still many examples which show that Katy is a very good girl.
          The character of Katy, is very dominant, as if she was the angel who had no faults. Everything she do always right and could solve the problems. All people at house asked her first for everything, for example asking if the currants ripe enough to eat or not, if the younger sister could do it or that, and many others.
          Besides, the family seems to be over dramatized, when Katy start to practice walking. It can be seen in this part :
“It was droll and little pitiful, to see tall Katy with her feeble, unsteady progress, and the active figure of the little sisters following her protectingly.”
It shows that Katy get special treatment from the family. The family seems to be dramatized too much about this, while Katy herself didn’t consider it either droll or pityful, in fact it’s simply delightful for her. (Coolidge, 1983).
          Being disabled is also considered as the process to reach maturity. As Dowker’s argument that the disabilities could be ‘the school of pain’ for Katy. From the accident that made her became disabled in walking, she could be more patient, respect other people, think wisely, and be grateful for everything she had. It can be seen when Cousin Helen who was also couldn’t walk, came to the celebration of Katy’s recovery.
She saw Katy meet them all pleasantly and sweetly, without a bit of the dictatorial elder-sister in her manner, and with none of her old impetuous tone. And, best of all, she saw the change in Katy’s own face; the gentle expression of her eyes, the womanly look, the pleasant voice, the politeness, the tact in advising the others without seeming to advise. (Coolidge, 1983, p. 77)
From this part of the story, we can see that Katy have changed drastically, that being disabled could make her became wiser than before she got the accident.
3.3.    A Friend for Julia
          This story seems to be real for present-day children, because the setting of the story is in 21st  century which is closer to where we are now. The portraying of disabled character whose name is Julia seems to be more natural in the children’s daily life. It is difficult to face the first day-school in the new place with showing our disability in front of many people. At first, her new classmates thaught that she was a weird person because of sitting on the wheel chair.
          It shows the problem which mostly occurs to the persons with physical impairment that many of them are not confident with their weakness. It was so difficult for Julia to adapt with her new friends so that make her do not want to come back to that school anymore. We can see this part:
“All the boys and girls looked at Julia. They were curious about her chair, but nobody said a word.
Julia looked up, and her face was real red. Kendall thought she saw tears in her eyes.”
          In this story, the crippled person is not described as superior person as the description of Katy in What Katy Did. Julia, can’t get along with her new friends because most of them belittled her. However, there’s one important character named Kendall who was aware about her feeling. By this character, Julia could change her mind that she had something special instead of her disability.
          By this character, children also can learn what they should do if they meet someone in wheelchair. Kendall asked Julia a question which was not questioned by other children because they do not dare to be close with her,
“Why are you in a wheel chair?”
Julia gasped and looked at Kendall. “Nobody ever asks me that,” she said.
“Why?”
“I don’t know. Maybe they think I’m too weird?”
“I don’t think you’re weird,” Kendall said. “I think you’re interesting.”
Since that moment Julia dared to show her unique abilities. She, then, tell the reason why she had to sit on the wheelchair and show Kendall that she could make unique songs and could say the alphabet backwards. It may only an ordinary thing to do such things for us, but for them it’s such a wonderful things because not all children could do that.
          This is a good story for children because it shows that not all normal people belittled the disabled person like Julia. For the the disabled persons, it assures them that instead of their weakness, they still have many other potencies. By this story, the disabled persons are given the chance to show their ability, so that they will not be belittled anymore.
4.         Conclusion
          In this section, I have shown the different ways of portraying the disabled characters that are used in the three stories. From the elaboration in the previous section, I conclude that those three stories build the disabled characters in different way. There are three main points of the descriptions of the stories.
          Firstly, in the Silly McAdam, the disabled person, Mr. McAdam is characterized as marginalized person because of his disability in doing everything correctly. It can be seen by the cursing words from her wife, Mrs. McAdam. It’s because he couldn’t do what she ordered. From this story, the teacher or the parnets can inform them that cursing the others for their abilities is impolite and, indeed, it’s such a bad deed. However, It’s little bit difficult to show them that it is wrong to curse other people because in the end of the story, there’s no solution of it. In fact, the wife chased him and tried to hit him with a stick for his faults that he did. In Silly McAdam, the disabled person is represented in humorous tone. We may laughing while reading the story. However, for the persons who have the same disabilities with McAdam it will not be funny stories, because it’s like the story that mocked their weakness.
          Secondly, the representation of Katy in What Katy Did, is very different from the representation of McAdam in the Silly McAdam. Katy is representated as a very kind girl who full with affection, who respect, care and love other people. She talked and did everything politely, with the best manner. She have never wanted to disappoint other people, so that she became the central of the family. In this story, disabled person is portrayed as superior character who can be better in every way than the ‘normal’ persons. The portraying of disabilities is too much dramatized. It is also dominated by the didactic values that Katy always told her sister about being respect to other people.
          The last one is the representation of Julia, the cripled girl, in A Friend for Julia. Julia as the disabled character is not portrayed as girl either as the superior or the marginalized character. The characterization of Julia is very natural because she appears simply like the children who couldn’t walk. She is not portrayed either as strong as Katy nor marginalized as McAdam. This story shows the balance of portraying the normal and disabled characters. Kendall as the normal person, have the same portion with Julia. If in Silly McAdam, the disabled person is authorized by the normal (in this case the wife), and in What Katy Did, Katy dominated the household, while this story is not either authorized by the normal persons, nor dominated by the disabled person.    
          From the different ways of portraying the disabled persons, children may know and can differ which one is good or bad deed. From the different way and point of view, children can also learn how it feels to be the person with disabilities, so that the can be more respect them. It is not only to engrave self acceptance to the normal children that there is a persons with disabilities around them, but also to engrave self confidence for the disabled persons that instead of disabilities, they still have many other competencies which may not be owned by the normal one.

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